2nd to last day

Crystal, me, Nicole, and Emily on the ferry back from Nanaimo on IFB Weekend

beautiful new ferry with floor to ceiling windows…

Today is the 2nd to last day that i’ll be at BCWWA – i can’t wait! haha the CEO here really really sucks. I hope Dena will be better(?).

Oh yes, so i got offered the team coach position at BCPWA again, at $17 an hour. i wonder if i should negotiate something else. like be able to do some of the work at home, etc. i say etc, but i don’t have anything to back that up. i don’t know what else i can ask for… what should i do? i thought maybe writing this here might help me think. but it’s coming up totally blank. well that’s not good.

Cruise is the end of the month! there’s only 16 days left! that’s like two weeks omg! i have to shop for some stuff to wear – i am SO VERY EXCITE! wooot oh shit. i need to find something to do during the shore stuff. yay yay yayyyyyy

oh shit. i need a new camera. i need a to-do list.

what else is new? i had something to write about that’s why i started writing. it was a start of something new… OH YES! yesterday Jo, Dem, Zill, Hill, Sarah, and I went to Fraser to dance. I first did a slow foxtrot with Zill, which worked out good. And then I followed that with a Chacha. after which, i was super surprised… i’m not tired at all! normally i would be a little hoffing puffing but i wasn’t. i didn’t even feel my legs sore or anything. this is great! i realize that being at the gym consistantly for 3 months has actually paid off and my stamina is increasing! I went home to talk to Andy about this and he says: of course! when you’re running, you’re at a 70-80% exertion rate. when you’re dancing you’re only at about 30-40% exertion rate max! sigh this feels good – feels good to be fit.

Tonight there is a game on: Playoff game, 2nd round, 4th game, Canucks vs Blackhawk, Canucks 2, BH 1, away game. we’ll see what happens.

okay back to work! update more often soon =)

Half Way

I haven’t written here for almost a year. It’s funny because i see that I tried to use this blog as a place to keep my food diary. lots have happened since last July, mainly in the last 3 months.

In January, Zill got Wii Fit. Mr. wii fit board said I’m OBESE. that word scared the shit out of me, so I did something about. faced my fears and moved on – that’s when i found Calorie Count. It’s where i keep my food diary now. it’s so easy to use, and great to keep myself in check. So I usually eat about 800-1000 calories a day, which is lower than recommended – oh well. I also started exercising 4 out of 5 weekdays, doing cardio and weight lifting. I’m so educated now on losing weight – even got Andy to start using calorie count just a few weeks ago. it’s easy to make him see the difference with that website – 1 egg = 90 calories, 1 egg white = 16 calories. So now he’s only eating egg white for breakfast!

btw, Volumetrics is a good great book for calorie counters!

So all this talk with words, lets see some numbers!

January 28th I started my weight lost plans: 178 lb!! BMI 30.2 <–obese
April 7: 158.2 lb!! BMI ?? (it’s on wii fit).
that’s a total lost of 20lb! (~12lb since starting CC). That makes me half way to my first goal of 140lb which will make me NORMAL WEIGHT!

i look and feel great. i party harder at clubs now and definitely have more confident. I see the pictures of me last summer and is disgusted with the way i look. I’m so fat. SO SO SO FAT. and now, the change is very much noticeable (by me and Zill at least) – i have shoulders, collar bones, wrist bones, and (discovered yesterday) shoulder blades! everyone has been super supportive of me, it’s a blessing. there are a few exceptions, more on that later.

The place that lost most also include stomach (yay), arms, shoulders, lower back, upper back (in the middle) and legs. i love my legs. i will love them more 20 lbs later, but it’s been a great success thus far.

I really don’t remember how i use to live; how i use to eat. that past me is so far away now. I’m much more aware – i think that’s it, it’s awareness. Just because things didn’t look bad for me, doesn’t mean that they aren’t horrible. Now I’m empowered with facts, numbers, methods – AND IT ALL WORKS. that’s just so surprising. less than 3 months later, here I am at 158lb, a weight i haven’t seen for more than 2 years (in May 2007, i joined the gym hoping to get fit. At that time, i was 167!). I have shed 2 years of my life in 2.75 months!!!! after this is over, I’ll feel like i can accomplish anything in the world =)

The great thing is, i don’t feel like I’m dieting. i enjoy everything that i eat. I let myself eat dessert, candy, chocolate. I would let myself eat fried things too but really that’s bad for you in other ways than just the calorie. I have a system that works now and will work for me for many years to come =)

I’M SO HAPPY. i’m on top of the world.